darkside

I'm full of things to put in the book, but i'm concerned about the dark side. I want a light and fluffy book, dont I ?

In the meantime I wrote another short story the other night... in which I let the scarier side of my head out for a walk in the park. The story is very darkside, so much so I'm not sure I want people to know what sort of evil thought is allowed to live behind my eyes where only I can see.

Anyways, Darkside it is, and darkside will be coming to this post, probably tommorow.

(additional - this post has been reduced as I'm also reserving other parts of my mind that inadvertently popped out when I was posting.... its a shame... very few people will have read what I wrote about eyes!)

what started as a story became an interesting diary entry.

(authors note to self... write song - hole in the head, bah crap its coming out now... at least a dodgy first draft)

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Hole in the Head.

I found a hole in my head
where things bleed through
my life ebbs away
what can I do
its a hole in my brain
where knowlege drains
of the things I say and do


Chorus:( first line changes??)
There's a hole in my head
a hole in my head
it makes me confused
am I alive or am I dead
There's a hole in my head
a hole in my head
is this a dream, can I wake up
instead

theres a place in me
where I can go
a place that the world
i'll never show
somewhere for the life that i must hide
somewhere for the darkness i keep inside
a place where i can be with you
the hole in my head that i fell through

Chorus

oh i wish and I wish and I wish and I wish
for a better life my friend

with you.

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NaNoWriMo

bah dede dah dedah! I'm starting my NaNoWriMoCrusade with a post on this blog. I will probably write a couple of short stories during nanowrimo, but i'm going to need a seperate outlet for blasting the book while i'm writing. I will undoubtedly post a couple of extracts, expect one every couple of days after the end of the second week I suppose, maybe 500 of every three thousand words I write. Obviously it'll end up that you can read the first couple of chapters on here, and then I'm going to hope there's enough interest that some sound minded publishing company decides to pay me for the manuscript, and delivers you all from never knowing the ending.

All that aside I would appreciate any feedback, any constructive criticism, and any proofreading that anyone would care to offer. At the end of November, I hope to have something I can send off to try and get published, and then see what comes along from there. Still unsure about genre, but I think Sci-Fi or Fantasy is probably the easiest. That's always been what I've read the most of, and it allows for the greatest potential for events... you can do anything in the future ;)

Or on a different planet. Oooh first contacts are always fun. Yay I love Star Trek. And Doctor Who, and Red Dwarf, and Battlestar Galactica, (and Anna: ed = hey it came out of my mind at that moment ok). On that note, I'm going to concentrate on writing about the aliens, so that I can abuse this post and nick words into my novel. Well, if its good enough.

oooh a chance for a futuristic psuedo-military alienfactfile.

Alien Species name: Tortorians
Human Name : Torbellino (whirlwind) nasmed by spaniard who first saw them
Alien homeworld : Tortoria - very different to earth - hot molften stuff maybe, whatever they are they're going to be succeptible to water and not a whole lot else.
Human Name Torbellinos -
Distance from earth ; 17 light years

Lifespan : 300 years

laalalala bored with that, must be I was dreaming again. same as always. y'know, this summer some of my friends have described me as an idealist,as pitiable and admirable at the same time, as 'saving myself for a no-hoper', as a waste of space, as the last of the romantics, as underpaid, as overpaid, and I'm honestly fed up of it all. I hate to say this, but I dont want to know what you think of me.

It does me head in it does, having to exist in the 'real world' Why cant I just be happy in the 'PauL's MiND PLaY aRea', open seven days a week, fifty two weeks a year. Today, I have only eaten Chinese food. Tomorrow, I think it will be Indian. I wonder what alien food would be like. Would they have similar vegetables and animals to us? Would they even consume food in the same way as us?

Is it better to do a first contact when we contact aliens, or when aliens contact us? If I set it when aliens contact us, then I can be all political in it, and talk about my single world government ideas some more, but if i set it when we are contacting them, then I can have a whole fleet of human ships all over space, which is how i'd love it to be. Maybe I can have both somehow.

Hmmm.. maybe i'm avoiding crowds? I dont seem to have very good crowd - interaction at the moment. bit of an aside that, but it used to be accompanied with a few hundred words that should never have escaped my mind.... so i've deleted them!